Some times

What do you know about relationships?? Can you define them & say yeah man... I know how this works?? The day when humans can solve this puzzle...life would loose its secret... How many times do you react to a situation n say that I have done what I thought I would do... Does this actually happen? Does planning a trick work as it has been?? Some how I feel today we fall,trip & try to sail in this huge ocean seeing no end to the endless blue giant in front of us... We attempt n re attempt to make it look beautiful,subtle n truly serene... But serenity in itself is some thing so immaterial... cant catch it n say that yeah I have struck the right chord... Like playing guitar is not each ones game... sailing through a ship... which is relation ain't an easy trick... One day I wanna just break free n see does this make a difference to any thing within n makes u want it again n feel that u r so incomplete...any ways.. life is such a bitch... that u cant bite it n end up getting fucked... U ask for something n u get the opposite or may be close to reality.. but is that enough to bring a little smile or u still want more...What you want is again originated from where... heart or brain?? two things which keep over powering the other...one pushing you to do things without knowing the end result, the other giving you options of the result...The earth revolves around but some where I feel our brain goes faster than that... This is one frame where u don't whether u can walk out or stay within...

Going Away

Some how you going away today may be just for sometime is making me really sad.. I haven't spoken to you since morn & I am dying to hear to from you.. God knows why the hell is this happening to me... this is right or wrong or bloody shit...I really don't know....Only thing i know is i wanna see you & be with you & cuddle you in ma arms & feel you next to me..Your warmth is something that i miss the most right now... from no where u walked into ma life leaving me helpless craving for you like a thirsty crow craving for water...Why the hell is this happening?? I am not suppose to behave like this... Its not me... I don't give any one undue importance & let that person take control... With you your voice is something i could wait whole night to hear,... Your way of saying ...baby...is something i would just die to listen...oh gosh...my lord... this devil in me...just doesn't let me be in peace.. I don't know what to ask of you... I know if I ask any more... I would be greedy n don;t want to be... But some how you going away to come back is creating this pain... which i cant express... I wish i could give you that hug which would make you know what you mean to me... I wish I could give you that one kiss which would make you come back to me... I wish i could hold you so tight that leaves impressions on your bear chest.. I wish i could give you a love bite... but this world has tied my hands so tight that i just cant or ever.,..cut myself off this trap & break free... What if you would not have walked into my life.. what if i would not have made that single call back... What if i would not have heard you... would life have been the same...as it had been...why am i feeling diff today.. I am just not able to hold up my feelings n it feels like i would die in this whole confusion state...I cant say this to any one... dont know if you would ever u;stand this... What am i asking of you i myself don;t know... What do i want for myself is also very unsure.. Only thing I know now...is I want to rewind to the day i met you & just be there like a statue... Muah.,.ah...

Gulping Long Island Ice Tea

This was the day meant for fun & super fun indeed...
We had my bro with his broken leg.....who just wanted to forget the pain...
Of course was me who was suppose to be the entertainer...
Had two other pals who just added to the flavor...
Hit a pub which was playing some sad stuff but the company was awesome....
They ordered beer n suggested i try this one called the Long Island Ice Tea....
The name sounded super cool n funny n different & i jumped on the idea...
when it arrived my mouth was held open wide.... i mean it was really long...
It was a mix of gin,rum,vodka & something else which i don't recall...
The first sip was a little tough but then it started playing the trick...
First time i was feeling a little high & text one of my friends...
The text read...I wanna see u... N want a kiss from u...which is totally unlike me...
But then realized that it was all that was going down my throat which was it...
Got a call back & it seems i sounded really sweet is what i got to know the next day...
I cant some how u'stand the psychological effect a drink can cause....
You suddenly feel the whole world...is superbly beautiful & drooling in front of ur eyes...
The stuff i spoke dont think would have spoken otherwise...
The only thing I missed was a mate...whom i could cling onto & relish the wild thoughts hitting the smaller part of my brain....
Oh gosh! Kinda loved being there where you dont wanna know the right or wrong,.. Dont wanna know the hooks ups or breaks ups...
But just be ur self & may be a little wilder & wackier than that...
My oh my just dont stop...my oh my...singing all the while..
Requested for the songs Come undone from Duran Duran..>Swayed to the tunes...relished the music hitting the ears amazingly...
Ummmmmmmmmm..wht more could u ask for to laze out a Sunday better...
Drive home was nice holding hands with the pal who made me feel nice & touched...
Hmmm...Hope more such days come & make one feel nice...

A feeling to feel

Hey friends...has it happened to you where you just meet a total stranger & feel like you have met umpteen number of times...
Some one just makes you feel simply special & different than the crowd... oh gosh... tough to say...
One little touch from this person can make you drool around & swing along their tunes...
Holding those hands would make a current pass thru your veins...
Has this happened people??
A simple talking among loud music... turning into the best moment of life with a lovable kiss....
A kiss that can make you ask more of it...n feel that this is not it...
A Kiss which says a lot about the person whose lips are on yours & has an amazing... feeling which is truly indescribable...
Some time in life you stop by people who make an impact on your life... u might not love them & crave for them but u still want them so bad....
this is not lust nor is it some weirdo attraction....
I must say i was in the moment & truly relished it...
Makes one feel so wonderfully nice that its freak in too tough to put in words...
I Loved it... n some where the devil in me....wants more...
Should i indulge in it or let goooo...