Finally....spilled the beans

Yes, I did it...it was something pending to be done for ages now but couldn't wait any longer...
I mean,how far would you push to try to manage a situation which is totally gone off hand. Would you really keep trying or put a break & see where are you going with all this?? Well, that's life...ain't it?? Never thought that bitter words coming out, bottled up tight within the brain would actually give so much solace that I would stop caring totally.
    
                   Another promise made,another timeline given, another Miracle promised. Truly, I wish & pray that this time around its either make it or break it. I have reached the threshold level & don't think any more I can afford bearing. No, just can't rather I won't . Life & its mysteries, was given so  many chances in Life to make a change & be what I am best at. But, Alas! I missed it thinking what I have is the best & would remain the best. A relationship can give you a lot yet without your knowledge it takes a lot too.

                      Finally, I have reached a point in Life,where I need to live on my terms, my whims & fancies,just can't diverge. Not possible,enough is enough. What surprises me, Love knocks at my door so silently that I get swept off my feet & am lost in the bask of it glory. I can't imagine living without loving. So, you sitting up there, consider me for once this time around & give me something that lies with me for so long I don't need to hunt for anything else. Is that a lot to ask you??

                             Guess............No.... and I am not taking a NO as an answer this time around...

So Little Yet So Much

Sometimes in the course of life,you hope and wish you could do a little, a little more than what you always do. But, somehow,you realize that may be you are beginning to push yourself beyond all of it,that's worth. Asking someone for something which may be the tiniest of the thing,might appear a hurricane task. It just might not fall in place each time. Listening to a no time and again,for reasons that don't seem just or satisfying, can get onto you very easily. Independence, self respect, being my own boss are some things that loose their value once you got someone else to depend on. Picking up the slightest step to getting some joy, or some smile seem expensive.

                       Other than self,other than that,no body or no one could fix it. I really may be am not able to put words together to convey my thoughts. Sometimes, being hopeful can be the only thing one could do as all else seems unreachable and distant. Friends, whoever created them should be honoured and kept right there as such creations can only be done once and they always come with an ear to lend, a shoulder to cling on and of course a bear hug to give solace.