I am being myself

I am right here sitting on a lazy weekend.. Have my darling with me & we like crazy have watched three movies at a stretch... Don't know some days u just wanna laze around & keep gaping at the screen & those thoughts kinda stop for a second... but here they come back & bang on & tell u hey u think u can escape but I ain't letting go that easy.. man.. what is this??? some thing freaky & just so so still & unchangeable... You keep going the other way round thinking that u r being different, but then here you are back to where it all began.. my my.. can you actually make an attempt to change it all.. forget all... u think we change as in you yourself... I some times look back to what I have been in a couple of years... n I feel yeah.. I have changed to a certain extent but some where deep down I am still the same person who relates to people & lives with them & cherishes their joys & sorrows too.. But some how I fail to u'stand how some people force themselves into the changes which are pushed upon them in fact give in to them without realizing who they are.. Don't know how much of it is making sense to all of you,... all I am trying to say is that don't loose yourself in this wild wild world where each single thing around is making an attempt to force u to be...
There is gonna be a time where you are gonna look back at all these things.. n u dont wanna feel man what have I been?... So buckle up people & Relish your self :)

Just crazy

This is the day where I am having weird feeling about almost everything in & around me... I swear I am just not able to hold it back.. Dont know what to say but I simply wanna break free & run away to a different world where no one knows me at all.. I am not among known people at all & thus dont have to put a face at all.. People does this happen to you too.. Man.. trust me it sucks big time.. When U r happy about your friend yet you are shit uncomfortable about the things going around you,,.. I feel like a god damn sinner..Why are these thoughts comin to ma mind.. It shouldn't right... I should not come btw my own friends & still feel that I love them & I feel left out.. Is this something that I should regret & freak in just not bother....