Myself
The entire previous day was some how so depressing if I am using the right word.. Just started with a tiff, continued to a misunderstanding,further to hurting talks that pinched me deep inside. All the while I was forced to think, am I different or is the situation not right?? Some how, I keep landing in scenarios where I kinda loose my cool, control would be slightly overrated. Money, relationships, emotions, hardships, career, love, happiness & so on...agreed are part of life but all happening at the same time puts one in a tight & tough spot. I guess from an age of 18, understood the importance of money, learned to earn but apparently never knew to manage it. I know you would say, its the same case with all but I would deny...
There are people out there who are smart & really tricky in tackling issues. However, people like us get out of one & get into another one. Its like a game of tennis where the ball is being tossed from one side to another as though if not done, would feel sad. I am sure, one as a matter of fact has untold words that each time can't be expressed. Or too many thoughts that fail to gain words, vocabulary seems just not enough. Ur brain doesn't seem to help you in framing the sentences to spurt it out. Its jammed like a rusted machine. A battle won is battle fought. But, when the battle is with your own self, who determines the winner??? Who judges the best performer???
Many a time, your heart is so full of thoughts, emotions, it seems impossible to focus. Some one sitting right next to you talking, known you for ages, known all your secrets would also fail to gauge the depth. This happens to me quite often where I wonder, am I too bound by things that I have started to drift apart? My hooks ups should be owned by me, my screw ups, my blunders, my decisions. All of us spend most of our lives crunching in views & visions with someone's perspective and not ours. We fail to realize this is a thorough act of manipulation not done with a purpose but may be just in good faith. To stand tall & say "NO" is never easy...
It's totally unexplainable 'cos firstly you don't need to & secondly why should you?
These small battle of thoughts keep boggling each of us day in day out, just that we always give in or give up.
There are people out there who are smart & really tricky in tackling issues. However, people like us get out of one & get into another one. Its like a game of tennis where the ball is being tossed from one side to another as though if not done, would feel sad. I am sure, one as a matter of fact has untold words that each time can't be expressed. Or too many thoughts that fail to gain words, vocabulary seems just not enough. Ur brain doesn't seem to help you in framing the sentences to spurt it out. Its jammed like a rusted machine. A battle won is battle fought. But, when the battle is with your own self, who determines the winner??? Who judges the best performer???
Many a time, your heart is so full of thoughts, emotions, it seems impossible to focus. Some one sitting right next to you talking, known you for ages, known all your secrets would also fail to gauge the depth. This happens to me quite often where I wonder, am I too bound by things that I have started to drift apart? My hooks ups should be owned by me, my screw ups, my blunders, my decisions. All of us spend most of our lives crunching in views & visions with someone's perspective and not ours. We fail to realize this is a thorough act of manipulation not done with a purpose but may be just in good faith. To stand tall & say "NO" is never easy...
It's totally unexplainable 'cos firstly you don't need to & secondly why should you?
These small battle of thoughts keep boggling each of us day in day out, just that we always give in or give up.
posted by some1there at 8:36 PM
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